Expiration date

I am a bit dreamy,who hopes relentlessly,and there are no words,to describe these feelings,so I am keeping them to myself,Just know that the first times are hardest,feels terribly foreign and difficult,but the good part is,that everything comes,with an expiration date. #Runningthroughmyveins #saturday #9:50pm

Inspiration

You inspire me to become nothing like you. Alhamdulillah Allah changed my condition. Last year this was one of the most painful times of my life. This year Allah changed my condition. Alhamdulillah. Time never remains the same. Monday 23 Jan 2023

Uneasy feeling

The words just left an uneasy feeling in my stomach, thighs, and legs. Did free association to understand the concern, felt relieved for some moments but then again my heart beat started racing. Breathe in breathe out, the roller coaster technique will work out. Anyways this uneasy feeling is good in a sense that it…

11 November

They say,be proud of your kind heart,not everyone has it,how should I tell them,about the intensity,from which it feels,the emotions.The rough waves which crashes the shore,and takes every ounce of rationality away with it.Today the body wanted to shut down,but the mind wanted to explore,the body protested for rest,yet the mind wanted to run in…

Dear November…

Growth feels uncomfortable,more like intensely painful.The years I lost,in telling myself,that I am,aloof, inconfident, immature.The years I lost,in following the inhumane script,given to me by birth.The years I lost,in hating, criticizing, and starving myself,for helding myself responsible,for the things which weren't my responsibility in the first place.I was a baby,a blank slate,a human who deserved,to…

If I think I can, I can

Sunday, November 6, 2022 - 11:32am Such a profound lesson I learnt. As I reflected back on my life events, I came to realize that every time I was in a dark tunnel I had faith that I would get out of it. When I chose commerce, I just knew I would clear it. I…

Powerful – Sambhal lain gai

Heard seeing your loved one in pain,is one of the difficult situation,and it's true,I have the insight,that you are disturbed,you seem someone who is carrying a mountain,a mountain composing of tiny sharp stones,breaking your bones,I cannot do anything to ease your worries,but it is okay,I have a Creator who will handle all your concerns,I have…

12:59 a.m.

It's midnight yesterday, &the environment was surrounded by,darkness and silence!The only sound,that could be heard,was of my beating heart!Eyes were flowing a river,whereas hands were quivering,goosebumps started appearing!There were no words,for the feelings that I was feeling,just knew that my heart was aching!Another sorrowful night I had,One in silence,One in distress! #Healingjourney #mehunorAllahhain Whenever I…

Waiting & Counting

I desire to copy paste you,by my side right now,the heart is holding you,when the arms cannot.Counting the minutes,until I see my sunshine,waiting is hard,but I will be patient,as it means,getting to spend the rest of my life with you.Despite being a thousand kilometers apart,you are forever in my heart.I want to go back to…

A Recovering Fixer

Can’t really remember exactly,how young I was,when I learned,to be the fixer in my family.I wonder if I was born with that feeling,or it was something I learned.The heartbeat is escalating again,unlearning is a distressing process,but I am done with being a fixer,it is exhausting,helping is hurting,And I am done with dealing with the same…